After six (or is it seven) years of blogging, you’d think I’d have this gig down already, right? Wrong.
These past few months have been hard. This past month, has been almost impossible it seems. A lot of people think working for yourself must be like living the dream. Making your own hours, you’re own boss, you pick what projects you want to work on, you make your own team. While that is all true, you are also your own worst critic. Self-doubt creeps in every corner of the day.
To most of my blogging friends, because I have been doing this for so long and because I love helping people, I am seen like a huge blogger. Compared to my social media following, my blog’s stats are small.
The last few months, I have seen a huge drop of traffic. It’s really, really hard to see when you work so hard. On top of that, I had a really awkward job interview that I thought I was completely qualified for, I got a nasty email from a brand telling me they thought my work was (in so many words) awful and that I didn’t live up to my rate or name, I had someone in my secret Facebook tribe report to a brand that they THOUGHT I did something wrong; when I did not. I have been past over opp after opp it seems. In short, I would love to just quit.
But, I am just trying to stay positive that this is just one hurdle and right now I am at the bottom. You know the only place you can go when you feel like you hit rock bottom? Up.